saranghae

"cintailah aku dalam diam dari kejauhan dengan penuh kesederhanaan dan keikhlasan" 
YA RAHMAN..


I pray for the one who will be a part of my life 
A man who loves you more than anything 
A man who loves me because of you 
A man who understands me completely 
A man who needs my smile to make him happy 
A man who has gentle heart and nice behavior 


Ya Wadud...
Please guide my heart 
Do not let me fall in love with the wrong one 
till the day that You specify 
I'll keep my love for the chose one .


amiinn..


“If I am meant for you, I am meant for you. If I am not meant for you, Allah will replace a person better than I am.”

my1st year in F.O.M

O Allah grant us the strength, patience and dedication to adhere to the Oath of A Muslim Physician at all times..amiin

orientation week,

registration course MBBS 220 at lecture hall D

talk at DSB uitm

last day orientation week (sports day)

explorace with seniors

sem 1 begin with lots of lecture and quite stress huhu and i'm quite nerd hehehe but i still have my friends around who always cheer me up :))

jamuan hari raya (labmate)

friendship is like a circle which has no end point

solat hajat

meeting with JPA staffs

my 1st time go to sunway pyramid hehe

merdeka night hehe

practical about bleeding i guess

merdeka!!!

huhuhu kene g BTN

we reward ourselves with food (right after last paper of final SEM 1 hehe)

    


2nd sem begin with lots of new friends and groups hehehe much more fun..below here are picture of my V.I.P

my lab group ( from left~ fifah, omar, me, syabil, amer, ain, yani, ayu)

ain sorg yg sgt cool..caring too (thnx cuz tegur ak ari tu..:) )

amer...g tgk slide histology laa isk2 asyik ngn hp je ;p ~p/s igt lg 1st time practical ko tkt2 amik slide dr tmpt ak hihi ak xgrg pun kan??

nih syabil...

omar... A student for MCQ test hehehe omar mmg rajin pun

my awesome labmates...they never fail to make every moment so precious.. p/s i'm gonna miss them

fadhil n kecik tu fauzan ;p

from left~ nad, jawahir, mira n me

my study group :)) they are really great and i'm so thankful to Allah cuz we gather as study group

                                                                                                                                                

activites after final sem2 exam wheee

lab activities

how to clean microscope

tendon reflex test (achilles)

sound check hehe xla nih auditory test

       

camping at lembah genting camp

survival cook

k.org kene mkn pe yg k.org msk k

repelling

our 8th batch dinner ~laugh.tears.study.pray.live life to the fullest together~

our vice dean (student affair)

my batch but there are a few of them are absent

guys rmi yg xdtg

umah anak yatim ~those children are so special ~

game wif the orphanage

wif hasif (boboi)

rumah anak yatim baitul izzah

our result for this sem2 final exam has came out last monday..alhamdulillah most of us passed, 59 students got A and above, less than 5 people who failed.. yup we had finished our 1st year as a big team.. well there are laughters and tears along the way, and it's definitely a journey we shall cherish and remember forever. We complete each other, don't we? 


p/s ~ see u all for next sem..dont forget to study a lil bit as an early preparation for our PRO exam in 4th sem chaiyok!!! nyway alhamdulillah 4years more to go my dear friends.. ukhwah fillah fi abadan abada (kwn smpi syurga) insya allah :)

24 hours kte??

each one of us..allah bg 24 hours per day... kte rs cm makin lame makin rs cpt je ms berlalu..mayb nk dekat kiamat or nk dkt ajal kte..yelaa pnh dgr kan "lapang sebelum sempit" :)) 24 hours yg kte ade rs nye 2/3 drpd nye bz ngn hal dunia..kan2..xpecially ak laaa..haih

skng sgt laa bz sbb jst a month left for final exam...kali nih module sgt laaaa byk..aaaa dats yg ak pesan jgn amik medic ;p..ade 6 module kene revise consist of 8subjects wahh cm subjek PMR dh hahahaha..kls yg pack pdhl sblum nih kls 8-5pm gak..tp lately nih rs exhausted sbb stress nk exam..tulaa break 2weeks ari tu lyn cte korea jeeee haaa pdn muke... heeee

ble pk2 blk..di kala m'cari ketenangan pas hbs kls petang2..rasulullah pun diberi 24hours.. baginda siap sempat qiamulail setiap mlm..solat sunat smua..pdhl baginda seorg pemimpin UMAT ISLAM lg besar tggjwb drpd pemimpin sebuah negara.. ak nih br sbg 1st year medical student pun solat kdg2 bkn awal waktu.. solat sunat rawatib pun jrg2..solat berjemaah kt surau setiap waktu lagi laa...hmmm 24hours tu g mane ek..lalai

rasulullah lg bz dr kte...lg besar tggjwb baginda...tp baginda dpt memanfaatkn 24hours tu secukupnye..balance urusan dunia n akhirat.. Allah berfirman "jika engkau kejarkn dunia..engkau akn dpt dunia..jika engkau kejarkn akhirat maka engkau akn dpt akhirat..jika engkau kejarkn kedua-duanya maka engkau akn dpt kedua-duanya"

24hours kte??? hmm diisi dgn solat farhu..solat sunat..pose.. stdy..wat tutorial..wat PBL (stdy case)..dgr lecture..terasa ati ngan org...cr psl dgn org...kutuk org...stalk org..mkn minum..tdo..tgk movie..sms..men game..pk nk khwn..sbg manusia mmg normal..tp sbg org islam??

semakin meningkat dewasa tanpa kte sedari..kte semakin jauh tuk pelajari islam..tuk faham akn islam..tuk buktikn islam kte bkn pade ic je..semakin jarang ngaji..solat berjemaah..pose..

dlu time kecik2..parents..ustazah yg akn guide kte..kejut kte smyg subuh..pastikn kte semyg 5waktu..msk sekolah berasrama lg laa..wajib smyg 5waktu berjemaah kt surau..alhamdulillah kte mampu lakukn..sbb ape?? sbb suasana solat berjemaah dihidupkn...sementara nk tggu imam azan kte bc al-quran..sbb ape?? sbb ade nye suasana membaca al-quran...pas solat berjemaah ad bacaan zikir..kte smpi hfl zikir tu..sbb ape?? sbb suasana zikir dihidupkn..adakah kte nih melaksanakn ibadah sbb suasana yg dihidupkn?? maka idupkanlah suasana itu di mane2 kte berada insya allah dr situ akn lahir keikhlasan kite dlm beribadah..determination kte dlm berusaha perbaiki akhlak kte ayuh :))

24 hours kte insya allah masih ade esk..jadikan lah yg terbaik..allah berikan 24hours pada rasulullah 1400 tahun yg dahulu masih same 24hours yg allah berikn pade kite...wallahualam~~

"demi masa manusia sesungguhnya berada dlm kerugian. kecuali mereka yg beriman dan beramal soleh. dan mereka saling berpesan-pesan dgn kebenaran dan mereka saling berpesan-pesan dgn kesabaran" ~Al-Asr 1-3

p/s~ ayuhlah ;p start stdy skg..strive together to infinite excellent..or we might kill one of our patient very soon..i really to fill my mind n heart wif positive words to be motivated yeah chaiyok!!

feeling down

“Easier said than done”,

we always say this and that but everything seems to be gone!

“Well done is better than well said”,

but what’s the point on doing it? Are our sweats paid?

Do you think it’s that easy?

If you say so, go on, show that “easy-peasy”,

prove that your words are not just for show!

I’m feeling like breaking down,

I’m losing myself, really, I’m going down,

don’t say to me “Don’t give up”,

because saying that makes me really wanna give up!

What life is for?

A test from Allah, the Almighty

If it’s like that,

Why are so you feeling wary?

There is no easy-peasy,

Because the price of heaven is expensive highly,

Yet we keep on falling down and doing bad,

Because we are perfectly imperfect.

Success is when

Hardship and prayers are granted,

When you slave hearts are heard.

Hoping that He would not impose us with

‘Cannot-carry’ burden

That’s when you know everything’s already decided.

Therefore,

Be content and served,

This is a period of test,

From Him to us,

A ticket to gain His Bless.

http://langitilahi.com/2011/02/25/im-breaking-down/#more-802

when we are not ready yet....

"Jubayr ibn Nufayr reported that Mu’adh ibn Jabal said, “If you love someone, do not quarrel with him and do not annoy him. Do not ask others about him, for the one you ask might be his enemy and thus tell you things about him that are not true and thus break you apart." ~~hadith bukhari

be humble ^^

do not deceive urself into being too proud b'cuz u r in good/righteous environment, for there's no place dat's bttr than paradise..n our father Adam xperienced there wat is known to all. do not become proud merely b'cuz u worship often, for consider wat happen to iblis, after he spent a great deal of time worshiping. do not think urself great b'cuz u've met wif righteous person, for there's no men more righteous than de rasulullah, yet de disbelievers and hypocrites did not simply benefit by knowing him~~hasan basri (rahimullah)

6 WASIAT SAIDINA UMAR AL-KHATTAB

Suatu hari Umar Bin Khattab r.a. bertutur kepada sebahagian sahabatnya;

Aku berwasiat kepadamu enam perkara :

Jika engkau menemukan cela pada seseorang dan engkau mahu mencacinya, maka cacilah dirimu. Kerana, celamu lebih banyak darinya.

Bila engkau hendak memusuhi seseorang, maka musuhilah dahulu perutmu. Kerana, tidak ada musuh yang lebih berbahaya terhadapmu selain perut.

Bila engkau hendak memuji seseorang, pujilah ALLAH s.w.t.! Kerana, tiada seorang manusia pun lebih banyak dalam memberi kepadamu dan lebih santun lembut kepadamu selain DIA.

Jika engkau ingin meninggalkan sesuatu, maka tinggalkanlah kesenangan dunia. Sebab, andaikata engkau meninggalkannya, bererti engkau terpuji.

Bila engkau bersiap-siap untuk sesuatu, maka bersiaplah untuk mati. Kerana, jika engkau tidak bersiap untuk mati, engkau akan menderita, rugi penuh penyesalan.

Bilamana engkau ingin menuntut sesuatu, maka tuntutlah Akhirat. Kerana, engkau tak akan memperolehnya kecuali dengan mencarinya.”

only true friend doubles the joy and divides the pain

Hafidh Ibn Katheer, commenting on this verse, relates a story on the authority of Ali Ibn Abi Talib (ra) and says that any friendship for other than Allah is turned into enmity, except what was in it for Allah the Mighty and Majestic:

“Two who are friends for Allah’s sake; one of them dies and is given good news that he will be granted al-Jannah, so he remembered his friend and he supplicated for him, saying: ‘O Allah, my friend used to command me to obey You and to obey Your Prophet (saws) and used to command me to do good and to forbid me from doing evil. And he told me that I will meet You. O Allah, do not let him go astray after me, until you show him what you have just shown me, until You are satisfied with him, just like You are satisfied with me.’ So he is told: ‘Had you known what is (written) for you friend, would you have laughed a lot and cried a little.’ Then his friend dies and their souls are gathered, and both are asked to express their opinions about each other. So each one of them says to his friend: ‘You were the best brother, the best companion and the best friend.’

And when one of the two disbelieving friends dies, and he is given tidings of Hellfire, he remembered his friend and he said: ‘O Allah, my friend used to order me to disobey You and disobey Your Prophet, and commanded me to do evil, and forbade me from doing good, and told me that I would not meet You. O Allah, do not guide him after me, until you show him what you have just shown me and until you are dissatisfied with him just like You are dissatisfied with me.’ Then the other disbelieving friend dies, and their souls are gathered, and both are asked to give their opinions about each other. So each one says to his friend: ‘You were the worst brother, the worst companion and the worst friend.”

p/s~ insya allah kte kwn sampai syurga :))

Andai masih ada hari esok....

wed..10am my mum dpt call yg my aunty (adik kpd arwah abah) tgh nazak.. then my mom suh la my uncle htr my aunty yg tenat tu g hospital but then they refused cuz bg d.org mmg xde hrpn.. k.org yg dgr nih rs cm nk ckp je.."hbs tu nk biarkn mati? kte nih selagi bley berusaha..wat je la..kte bkn allah tau ajal die ble..yg pntg ikhtiar" hmm k.org xbrani pun ckp cm2 tkt atuk kck ati kan (org tua mmg cmni).. my mum pun call la smua.. along yg kat seremban, abg lan yg kat HKL, sib baik angah x g teaching lg..abg raja yg kt bangi.. haa dgn adam nye kt umah penjaga die.. then k.org yg kt umah pack kan brg2 d.org haih mmg cm emergency gle laa..end up byk gak yg tertggl hehehe xpecially toiletries

k2 serius ek..ble abg lan smpi je umah..ty mak mcm2..nape xhtr hospital? nazak mcm mane?
my mum ckp~ "tercungap2..mulut dh berbuih2..mate xley bkk"..
abg lan ckp~ "mmg laa tercungap2. it could not be normal sbb lung die pnh dgn air..tp tercungap2 yg cmne? how can they define nazak if d.org xnk htr g hospital?..xfhm la lan mak"
my mum lak ckp~ "lan, mane la mak tau..jap mak ty blk d.org
abg lan~ yg pntg skg mak suh htr g hospital
my mum pun call lg skali tp still they refused to go to hospital..
abg lan~ mane bley cm2..bla..bla..bla
ak~ abg lan kene fhm...they are not really been exposed about all these things..org kg mane nk percy sgt doctor, hospital smua tu..dh laa kte blk je n tgk cmne..ok eee ssh btl ckp dgn doc nih..
abg lan~ heh heh 

then fetch up along kt R&R serdang..along call my aunty yg lg sorg suh call je ambulans amik my aunty yg tenat tu kt umah..atuk nk mrh, mrh la..heee my along mmg brani.. smpi2 je umah atuk, my aunty yg skt tenat tu dh g msk emergency.. so k.org pun g la hospital muar tu...tggu punye tggu...then doc pggl waris msk..along pun msk dgn ank aunty k.org yg skt tu..
*kesedaran score ~ 4/15 mmg kritikal.. then doc tgh tggu sm ade kene intubate or incubate (ade xsure la plak hee) ke x..then doc ckp "D.I.L" death in line..xley wat pape dh..dh terlambat..tissue smua dh damaged.. cuz history die ade congestive HF (heart failure), pulmonary edema( paru2 berair), kidney failure, diabetes, high bp(blood pressure)...so same ade nk stay kt hospital or blk umah..kalo stay pun k.org xley wat pape dh.. even nk incubate pun chance sgt2 tipis die akn kembali normal..jst pnjgkn nyawanya tuk beberapa hari je..but die still unconscious, paralyse..its like non functioning..only jst let her breathing..

then bwk blk umah..kul 10pm cmtu tgk mmg nazak dh..tarik nafas pun xsmpi..ble hembus pun ssh..k.org dh start bc yaasin smua..the tgh2 ak bc tu, aunty ak tu dh bunyi "krohh" ble die breathing..(nyawa dh smpi halqum) lower limb dh sejuk dh..kaki pun dh pucat.. sedih sgt..:(( ble tgk tu..rs insaf.. ak nih xtau lg cmne ak mati nnt

sahabatku...mati itu benar, sakaratulmaut tu sakit sgt..sdgkan ble izrail cabut nyawa rasulullah pun, rasulullah berpeluh2 thn kesakitan..nih kan kte manusia biase yg hy hamba allah dan umat rasulullah s.a.w.. masha allah.. sakaratulmaut tu bkn sepantas kilat dr hjg kaki hgga ubun dan ditarik kuar..lame rasanye..bergantung pada amalan kte..w.pun izrail cuba tarik nyawa rasulullah sebaik mgkn tp kesakitan tu masih terasa..sehinggakan rasulullah mtk biarlah die tggng rs kematian umatnya..subhanallah ikhlasnye cinta rasulullah s.a.w pada kite...~

11.50pm, my aunty meniggal dunia..inalillah..

dlm kete on our way back to hotel..
angah~ along, effa cmne kte nk kekalkn rs insaf nih setelah tgk sakaratulmaut n kematian?

along~ angah, even ak yg slalu tgk org nazak, ak wat CPR, then meniggal dunia..i've seen a lot but it was never a good feeling at all...mmg rs insaf sgt..then a few days later kte lalai..hmm manusia mmg pelupa..allah had said in surah an-nas

angah~ tu la along dlu sblum khwn slalu sempat nk bc kan yaasin tuk arwah abah..tp skg..hmm ak sedar ak lalai ble allah kurniakn sedikit kesenangan i.e adenya suami, anak, korg smua...dunia nih mmg melalaikn

me~ hmm dlm quran kan ade sebut lbh kurg cmni lah.. allah uji manusia dgn kesenangan dan kesusahan tp kebanyakan kte nih, ble sng lupa nk bersyukur kt allah, ble ssh br terigt kt allah..hmm ak pun slalu je lalai..iman manusia  nih bertambah dan kurg sbg fitrah manusia kte nih pelupa..btl ckp along td..tp kte jgn la slalu jd kan tuh sbg alasan..doa la byk2..insya allah

abg raje~ sbnrnye ble kte dlm sakaratulmaut..syaitan akn dtg uji kte dgn bg air..cuz mmg kte akn rs haus ble nk mati nih..slalunye syaitan akn menyerupai sumone yg tlh meninggal duni dan org tu amat kte syg..cnthnye mak la..kalo kte minum air tu..nauzubillah min zalik..kte mati dlm kekufuran..

me~ ooo effa pnh dgr gak

 hmm today i find this..

"Dan apabila Kami beri manusia merasai sesuatu rahmat, mereka bergembira dengannya (sehingga lupa daratan); dan jika mereka ditimpa sesuatu bencana disebabkan apa yang telah dilakukan oleh tangan mereka sendiri, tiba-tiba mereka berputus asa. Mengapa mereka bersikap demikian?) dan mengapa mereka tidak melihat (dengan hati mereka) bahawa Allah memewahkan rezeki bagi sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya (sebagai cubaan adakah orang itu bersyukur atau sebaliknya), dan Ia juga yang menyempitkannya (sebagai ujian sama ada diterima dengan sabar atau tidak)? Sesungguhnya hal yang demikian itu mengandungi keterangan-keterangan (yang membuktikan kekuasaan Allah) bagi orang-orang yang beriman." (Surah Ar-Rum: 36-37)

the day nk kebumikn jenazah..
it was my first n precious xperience when i got involved dlm mandikn jenazah.. sbb time arwah abah dlu k.org adik beradik xberkesempatan nk mandikan jenazah arwah abah..sbb org lelaki yg uruskn..plus time tu still tgh shock...and seperti biasa ak sk tgk persiapan kapan smua sampailah dikebumikn.. time mandi tu gune sabun buku yg special la utk mayat..pas2 tgn kene sarung ngan kain spy time nk membersihkan jenazah tu, arwah xrs skt..sugi lak tuk bersihkan mata, mulut, idung, telinga, ubun2 n celah2 jari tgn n kaki..nk kerinkan jenazah gn kain batik lepas yg dh gune spy sng nk serap air then kain kapan tuk pompuan 5lapis cm tu rs nye..yg pntg lg byk dr laki, setiap lapis kain tu taburkn serbuk kayu gaharu..pas2 percikkan air mawar tuk bau wangi laa.. ikatan plak jgn ikat mati..jst ikat cm bese..muka mmg terbuka la kn cuz nnt dlm kubur jenazah mengiring dan muka akn dihadapkn ke kiblat.. tp yg my aunty nih..ak xdpt g kubur pun cuz terpks jg adam..mak die sibuk kemaskn umah heee


blk je umah ptg smlm smua org pakat rht..tdo smua xpecially the two drivers..ehem abg lan effah xnyenyak tdo dlm kete smlm k..xley laju lagi ke bwk tu..huh follow kete dpn punye la dkt pas2 wat ala2 emergency break ohh male driver..tp kan mmg xsdp bdn la smlm..rs cm nk demam...penat sgt kot..ari ni smua bgn lewat kot..msg2 kelam kabut nk g keje..abg lan trus amik cuti kot..pemls btl.. haa along pun skip satu lecture pg nih, abg raja pun cr alsn xnk g keje..angah lak emergency leave la konon ari nih...hahaha korg2 penat sgt ye

alhamdulillah..my family dh jarang dgr radio era, hot fm, xfresh fm smua tu..msg2 ade usb kat kete msg2 dgr lagu maher zain..zikr..zain bikha..nasyid..:)) kalo xsblum nih kete my mum je psg ayat al-quran, dgr IKIM fm heee..alhamdulillah we find peace through those al-quran verses, zikr, and songs..well dgr lagu2 cmni kte still up2date..xpecially update our iman ^^

p/s~ andai masih ade hari esok..ya allah kurniakan lah kami senantiasa memperoleh nikmat islam dan iman dariMu...ya allah andai masih ade hari esok buat kami..kekalkanlah rase keinsafan ini bersama2 dgn nur hidayahmu yg memancar2 dlm hati kami..tp andai tiada hari esok buat kami, matikanlah kami dlm iman dan islam..amiin

yup.. it is you

i'm so grateful cuz i met u..alhamdulillah..surely allah had sent u to me so that i can realise about my mistakes.. yes allah sent u to me so that i'll be "istiqamah" for doing my responsibilities as a servant of allah.. and we met cuz allah knows u can always remind me and others about ad-deen..

whatever it is i 'll not forget you.. hmm you teach, guide n remind me about the purpose of life..how sweet the jannah and how scary the hell which allah had created both for us..yup a lot of knowledge that u managed to share wif us...insya allah i'll never forget those precious knowledge..and i'm still learning..alhamdulillah..:))

p/s~ i hope allah will bless u more...and u always with His love..amiin

who am I

I’m just an ordinary girl,
I have nothing special for you to buy.

I know I don’t have anything,
but yet I claim I have everything.

I always fulfill my life with sins,
always transgressing bounds with defiant grins.

Before this I was just a tiny ball of flesh without bones,
but yet my heart is harder than stone.

But now, I have to realize that the truth is serene,
I have to wake up and smell the deen.

I have to stand firm, although standing is hard,
my life was a total ignorance before, but now this is my start.

I’m not a scholar or a preacher; I’m just a normal dude who makes mistakes too.
This is me, now :))